Hey guys well I’ve been hiding away for no real reason, just had a quite period, things are pretty normal at the minute, in other words I haven’t being doing much! It’s been mainly work, college, time with the family, Seamus and of-course the gym! I’ve actually been very working hard at the gym back in all my size 6’s which I love, it’s definitely worth it - it doesn’t happen overnight but yes hard work pays off! Speaking of which we’re now in the final week of Lent and YES I have done it so far, I’ve managed to stay away from chocolate which was my main problem, and sweets and I think I may have slipped up on crisps the night of the cocktails with my ladies but other than that in general I have objected to everyday temptations. I’m seriously looking forward to indulging in some chocolate this Sunday though, and even more delighted with being off work for a few days!
As employers basically have the ball in their court nowadays I can happily say I’m off my temporary contract already and onto a permanent one. So the last couple of weeks couldn’t be better, I’m so happy. On top of all that I guess my love life has went from strength to strength recently too. When I came into this relationship I was extremely heart broken, and as much as I was honest with Seamus (and probably sometimes a bit too honest) he stuck around, but I fought the relationship all the way, in fact we dated for a year before I would actually commit. Looking back now I would say it was probably really hard for Seamus to listen to what I was going through and just known that I was just kind of taking my mind off things, or not wanting to be alone, going on drives, cinema anything to just not sit in the house. Many times I asked why he was still around but he said he seen something he liked and he was prepared to stay, also he’s been through a similar situation and he could more or less relate to how I was feeling. Anyway not to ramble on, its taken me a very long time to be completely happy, but I am finally there, now when I look at us as a couple I wander why I fought it so hard. I truly have someone who appreciates and loves me for me, someone who recognised that I’d been through some really hard times and was patient with my ‘wall’ coming down. I’m so grateful for his patience and his kindness along the way. That’s not to say he didn’t do his own wrongs, he was too coming out of a relationship but wasn’t quite as brutally honest as I was and as always truth comes out in the end. But not to dwell on what things happened, looking at the here and now I am grateful we stuck by each other and we’re shaping up to be one hell of a team.
Recently a lot of friends have told me of their relationship problems, some are getting married and it’s the stress of the wedding or others are newly-weds, or some are just going through difficult times and I think sometimes it’s as simple as a bit of miscommunication with one another. Like some truths are hard to hear, people don’t like criticism but in the end it gets it all out in the open, and I think this has been the backbone of survival with my situation. Seamus will often say I taught him what honesty really was, I never hold back, and sometimes criticisms are hard to hear but in the end if you take them on board and just accept them then how hard is it really. After all nobody is perfect, but if you love someone then you have to work around both your imperfections and find the compromise position and stick to it!! One of my best friends found out his girlfriend of many years has cheated on him and is now in a relationship with this ‘new guy’, and as much as he is absolutely gutted his response was “well I forgive her, I’m devastated, hurt but in time I’ll get over it”: he amazes me-so mature for his age, and such a brilliant understanding of human interaction and communication it’s scary! I’m devastated for him and in a way angry that she obviously knew that she had kissed another boy, and met with him yet was giving false hope that the relationship was going to be OK with my friend. Sometimes women are bitches, men often get blamed in the wrong but I think the odds are pretty much shaping up to be either.
So the latest in my life is… I’m deciding whether to box again or not it’s been a while since I’ve been in the ring, it would be for a great cause of course (a charity of my choice)! Anyone who knows me knows I absolutely love boxing but it costs a lot to do it so I’m not sure really. At the moment I’m starting to save and hopefully in a few years I’ll start to thinking about getting a place of my own, at 25 I probably should have done that by now, but life at home has been great so I haven’t ventured that far yet! Anyway as training is commencing my decision is going to have to be imminent…I’ll let you guys know!